I SURE JUST FELL ON MY BUTT

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A Letter from an Imperfect Human

To: My all-powerful Creator, Father, and Friend

From: Your learning, infant Daughter

Ha ha! I sure just fell on my butt! But I am learning! I am growing. And I will just get up and try again.

Will you help me stand? I will try again! Wahh! Oop... Fell again. I’ll stand myself this time! Oops. Ha! I fell again. I’ll try and try and try until I’m tired. Then I will rest safely in your arms because I know I don’t have to push harder than I have strength. I know I don’t have to earn your love. I know I can come to you happy or sad or tired or upset or mad, and if I let you, you will hold me. I know you love me, and you love me just because I am yours. So, I will rest and try and learn and grow all through my life. A little bit every day. And day by day I will be getting better and better! And one day when I am running SO fast, and I trip and fall badly, I will still remember you are there for me! To remind me I can always get up and try again. That I can rest and recover, and keep moving forward! You never save me from myself, but honor my decisions and teach me about myself as I remain teachable, and help me master this fabulous body you gave me.

Because BY NATURE I love to learn and grow.

BY NATURE I am Love and Joy and Light. Because I am of my Father, and made in His image.

And I know that everything that makes me believe otherwise is not true, not anything you would want me to believe, and is nonsense that can be unlearned. Sometimes I learn these falsehoods from my brothers and sisters. They think they are helping me by teaching me this. They think they are saving me from pain or hurt. They think it is true because their experience has taught them that it must be. But I know that you wouldn’t want me to believe it just because it comes from a “professional,” “leader,” “brother,” “teacher,” “public figure,” “world organization” who means well, but doesn’t know all that you know. They are learning just like me! We all have all sorts of opinions as we are learning and growing, but I know that no matter what ANYONE says YOU are the source of truth and light, and you will share with me what I am ready to receive. And that you will help me navigate difficult situations with kindness, grace, and love for myself and all my fellow travelers on earth.

And I know that one day when I am the FASTEST runner in the world, and everyone knows who I am, and everyone knows my name... and I have a terrible accident, and don’t live up to what others believe I ought to do or be, I will remember YOU ARE THERE FOR ME and you will help me rebuild all anew! And that YOU know what I am capable of. And that I can rest safely in your arms. And that YOU are there to help me evaluate MYSELF, without the comments and opinions of everyone who seems to think they know what is best to do. YOU know me! And I know that as I ask you, you will help me find areas I can make slight adjustments to improve. Because it really is just about the small things. You never ask me to do more than I am capable. You have always known I could be the absolute best. Not better than anyone (because we are none of us better than anyone else), but achieving greatness in the way I learn, and in the way I understand, and for my own life mission. And when I come to you with the big goals I have, you guide me to my next right step, my next right thing, the right opportunity, coach, friend, or phase. OR something completely different that is even BETTER than what I had in mind. And by and by we walk the path of becoming together, in just the way I need it!

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